Gangsters

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Nov 232006
 

We made our way to the restaurant car as the train was approaching Budapest. It was almost empty: there was one passenger, a man in his fifties, sitting alone; and a group of four railway employees–men–sitting at another table.
Their ‘style’ was very striking and unfamiliar. I scan memories of groups of men sitting together and nothing fits. What is it? Heads together plotting, is one phrase that seems worth trying. Men who have serious business to attend to, could be another. But it’s not business in the sense of company employees, salesmen and women, that is so familiar in our capitalist ‘West’.
One of the men, middle aged, stands and acknowledges us, gives us a menu to peruse, which is very meat orientated; schnitzel in a variety forms dominates. I opt for a Serbian style, mmj (from memory) chooses Cordon Bleu.

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Crossing the Duna as we come into Budapest

In the confusing nature of hungers, whereas we thought we needed lunch, perhaps what we needed was to invite the waiter to sit down, have a drink, and tell us his ‘story’. As it was the schnitzel sat heavily in my stomach and my mind was left to chew over my experience of these Serbian men.
That evening in Belgrade, after the walk from Station to hotel through darker streets than we were accustomed to, passing the armed guards outside an unmarked building, protected by ramps and heavy duty metal posts, we entered the restaurant for a bite of late supper, to find another of these Serbian middle aged men waiting on table. There was a sense of, what have we done to upset this man?
There’s some way in which I attempt to find a friendly basis for dealing with waiters, ticket office officials, but there’s another agenda present in Serbia which I can’t fathom. What is this about? Is it a hang-over from the secret police state of Communist East Europe? Is it a Serbian ‘style’ which long predates the twentieth century?
At breakfast the next morning a corner table was taken by a group of waiting/kitchen staff, again it was heads together, ‘plotting’, possible hostility–what are you people doing here? One man appeared to be the boss, more imposing, more authority, shaved head, moustache.
In the corner diagonally opposite these four, an elderly man sat alone, a regular, military background I would guess, downing a cognac, then being served a second.

What I hear from the news is the common cross-over between political terrorism and more standard criminality: drug dealing, bank robberies. Whether it’s the IRA in Northern Ireland, the insurgency in Iraq, warlords in the former Yugloslavia . . .
What am I being invited to see? What conclusions to draw?

ak

Menace

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Nov 222006
 

A menace is more visible than a threat.

Wednesday October 23rd: Or so it had seemed arriving in Istanbul on. But only seemed, because the truth was the menace at that moment was all my imagination, not fact.

The truth was that when we walked in the city for the first time and there was the midday call to prayer, as it happened signifying the end of Ramadan that Wednesday, we removed our shoes and entered the white stoned mosque – one of the many that on the ancient quadrilateral design template of Aghia Sophia in the City, it might have the Laleli Mosque This mosque, allegedly designed by architect Mehmet Aga, is located in Eminönü neighborhood. Built in 1763 during the reign of Mustafa III, the complex consists of the mosque, a soup kitchen, fountain, drinking water distribution center, shrine, inn, university, timekeeper’s clock room, housing for the clergymen, and several shops - and a graceful hand ushered us in to join with the rest of the congregation.

- "You too belong here", the hand had said. "Salaam aleikan, and peace be with you."

And yet the call to prayer had already aroused in my chest something else, a formless memory, shadows on the nursery wall, whispering voices from a past. This imaginary menace, it belonged to no true life experience that I could recall. Who had put it there? How had I made this early connection between childhood nonsense, the cow that had jumped over the moon, and this present cresent shape upon the minarets. It belonged to an ancestral history.

In Belgrade two days before reaching Istanbul we had walked south along the Terazije Kralija Milana to the Sanctuary of Sava, Autumn2006pics_031the new Cathedral, a bastion to match the bulwarks of the Kalmegadan fortress, Autumn2006pics_032a mighty church to resist the menace from the south. Under construction for almost a century to make menace more visible, and equally ancestral…

…the power to give form and to make it more real; the menace of the Cross and of the Crescent.

So that I began to lose my childhood imagination, the fear of terror, and I began instead to perceive – "And peace be with you" – this meeting place of faiths.

mmj

Story of THREATS

 Posted by at 12:24 pm  Atelier  Comments Off
Nov 212006
 

Why THREATS to persons upon the road?

I have referred in an earlier post to "active boundaries" – those that leak according to Anne Carson. Membranes that are at least semi-permeable to foreign bodies. National frontiers that are crossed and at which armed border guards raise and lower the barrier poles. In an earlier post ak also brought our attention to the Wordsworth poem about the love of walking "on the public road". This is not a private or interior world. These are open communications, ‘open connections’ and interlocutions with whoever we meet.

The Elementary Grammar of the Turkish Language (1877) provides for the traveller;  ‘Barley is yellow and the grass is green’ [sary - yellow, yeshel - green] ; ‘There are fleas in the city and in the village’ [pireh - flea] ; ‘The fleas in the city are very large’; ‘the roast meat is fat, the soup is cold, and the plates are dirty’; ‘the boy met the girl on the road’ (Next to this phrase there is a handwritten margin note in black ink that asks – "met?").

And we have no idea who we will meet.

Sooner or later all this criss-crossing on the road spells ‘danger’ [koorkooloo yol - the dangerous road]. We meet somebody brandishing a big stick. We are taken into custody. – "On your knees ", the somebody says, – "Why are you here?".

Being threatened with a beating, or the possibility of being killed. -"Why shouldn’t I beat you up, or kill you if I want to?". The question was also put in an earlier post. On our knees and shaking with fear, this is not the time to argue, or the moment to try to explain all the good reasons why not.  Imagination runs dry. And lies, exposed falsehoods, will result in a good thrashing, the infliction of pain or even worse. So what happens next?

We have reached a transgressive moment in the story. Or a pivotal event. Or one of falling, – Falling into the narrative, is another way of putting it. We are being asked to reach into the files marked ‘CONFIDENTIAL’ and reveal their contents. Asked is not the adequate word for what is happening. Required is better; at this moment, during an event that is possibly somewhere between, and likely to be inclusive of, epiphany and torture; under menace, or threat.

mmj

Here in the ‘CONFIDENTIAL’ file marked ‘ak‘, there is a Report. The  author, whoever it is that has been conducting this surveillance is not clear, has written at length under a section called ‘Needs to Perceive’. Too long to quote in full, there is one memorable phrase:

- "attempts to render the invisible visible" (underlined in black ink). To which is added at the bottom of the page (another handwritten margin note in black ink) – "Under threat, – I need to sleep, he says. And upon next waking promises to produce an entirely new story, a novel account, even though aware of the pain of punishments that he is under. – It is my own fault, he says, and he will refuse the offered hand of help of his ancestral Uncle Walter".

As for the mmj ‘CONFIDENTIAL‘ file, the direct evidence of the Notebook reveals: – "26th October 2006: Max is something of a ‘FATTY’ (capitals). The haman – massage man told him this last night. What did he do: 1. eats a large dinner; 2. sleeps heavily – wakes at 6.00, the call to prayer; 3. then sleeps some more; 4. eats a large breakfast, does not do Yoga this morning; 5. proposes taking a taxi".

To which is added at the bottom of the page (another handwritten margin note in black ink, but a different hand to the other), – "Needs to avoid pain (underlined). How does this work in practice? a conversation along these lines:

-  ‘Why are you here?’. No answer.

- ‘Why are you here?’. The stick is raised further, about to fall.

- ‘Before you kill me, tell me your story. Killing is easy, memory is hard’.

It is the story within the story, one of the oldest ploys in the book."

On not being well travelled

 Posted by at 11:33 am  Atelier, OUT in the WILDERNESS  Comments Off
Nov 212006
 

One of the key elements in the adventure of travel must be the approaching and crossing of borders. In our present arrangements of nation states, the formalised power of uniformed (and armed) officials to man borders and to check on those seeking to cross them, points to something that has deep unease in it. Fear of the stranger, fear of chaos, fear of those with different ways of doing things.
Personally speaking, I am the least travelled person I know: no taking the trail east when I was twenty, no gap year; some family (as a father) camping holidays in France, short sorties to Germany and Spain, ermmm . . . that’s about it. Facing the train trip East to Istanbul was about facing and ultimately crossing borders in my mind, that were formed by our post-war history of a divided Europe. Identifying with the whole pan-European project of the EU, could I wait for this political endeavour to spread across the globe?
On the other hand I’ve long felt drawn to Middle and Eastern Europe through my reading of European novels in translation. I should also mention Patrick Leigh Fermor’s (A Time of Gifts and Between the Woods and the Water) account of his little walk to Istanbul in the thirties which has enthralled me; so here I was on a train bound for Belgrade about to cross the border between Austria and Hungary. Hungary being a mysterious, exotic sort of place . . . I’m reminded of a Hungarian woman, is the name Klari the right one?, a Probation Officer (No! I swear I was running a workshop). She was certainly exotic and mysterious with her somewhat Mongolian features, that carved mouth with its full lips, direct eyes (were they really as green as my memory suggests?), and long straight hair way down her back . . . The question (which I always have the choice to explore) in relation to a woman is what is the nature of my sexual response to her–am I attracted, terrified, or coolly indifferent? In our language, to make love to a woman is to know her and as I approach the border between an Austria which ‘feels’ known, familiar, recognisable, and a Hungary which doesn’t, the excited anticipation asks, how much will I be able to ‘know’ her?

ak

Heading East

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Nov 202006
 

Look at a map and you’ll see that Vienna lies, pretty much, due east of Paris. As we waited for the train to pull out, the announced list of towns and cities (were we really going to stop at all of these!!) were dizzying with historical and cultural associations. It didn’t occur to me to note them down–lists of towns as poetry–but I remember Nancy, Strasbourg, Freiburg (I think), Munich . . .
As I’ve already intimated the seating was not comfortable, so as the light began to fade we asked the attendant to put the beds down (it didn’t seem entirely clear how the mechanism worked) and discovered that the beds were, contrary to the seating, extremely comfortable. So it wasn’t long before we were preparing for sleep, nibbling on provided treats, reading and . . . and then what do I remember?
I woke at Strasbourg where we seemed to wait (change of engines, driver?) for perhaps half an hour. I had no idea what time it was, had no curiosity about it, simply waited for the train to start again so that I could return to a glorious sleep; and that was the revelation, I loved sleeping on a train. I was like a baby being gently rocked by some benevolent force. How long has been since I felt so held?
I woke in the grey light of a misty Austrian morning; woods and neat fields, neat houses, a breakfast of prepacked bread, cheese, jam, orange juice, yogurt and coffee all ordered on the previous evening. The train pulled into Vienna exactly on time.
As in Paris we had a couple of hours before catching the Belgrade train–this time from the same station. So again with our wheelie suitcases we wondered out into the warm and peaceful Viennese early Sunday morning. Looking out from the station entrance we saw a church across the way and decided to make for that. It turned out to be a Lazerene church inspired by the work of St Vincent de Paul. I did pick up an English leaflet at the back of the church but cannot find it now, but he founded an order that was committed to work with the poor.
After a short time and a discussion about finding internet cafés in order to put posts on the blog it was time, with a fine sense of anticipated adventure, to climb on to the Belgrade train . . .

ak

Walking

 Posted by at 2:59 pm  Atelier, IN Conversation, ON the STREET, OUT in the WILDERNESS  Comments Off
Nov 202006
 

Here’s another great quote from our old friend Gary Snyder (The Gary Snyder Reader page 178):

"Walking is the great adventure, the first meditation, a practice of heartiness and soul primary to humankind. Walking is the exact balance of spirit and humility. Out walking, one notices where there is food. and there are firsthand true stories of "Your ass is somebody else’s meal"–a blunt way of saying interdependence, interconnection, "ecology", on the level where it counts, also a teaching of mindfulness and preparedness."

Thank you for that GS.

ak

These cities . . .

 Posted by at 11:50 am  Atelier  Comments Off
Nov 182006
 

The cities, London–Paris–Vienna–Belgrade–Istanbul, each more rich, more complex, more mysterious–in the sense of not easily or willingly giving up their secrets, than I could ever imagine; layer upon layer of stories, piled up with the centuries, open and the at the same time closed, seductive and brutal.
Four weeks ago I had a coffee and criossant at Le Pain Quotidien, next door to the Royal Festival Hall, a stylish, beautifully presented, "Boulangerie et Table Commune" prior to walking through to Waterloo Station and the midday Eurostar to Paris. An experience of the refined and the rustic. All the customers that I saw looked interesting, cultured and beautiful.
The Eurostar was, of course, fast and smooth, so streamlined that we could fully give in to the omnipotence of efficiency.
We had a difference of opinion as to whether to walk from Gare du Nord to Gare de l’Est or get a taxi but a street plan made it clear that the other station was ‘just round the corner’ so off we set with our little wheeled suitcases (have these, now ubiquitous bags, got a name?) into the afternoon Paris of roadworks, and rebuilding, traffic, and a rich brew of ethnicity, little shops, and very little time before needing to board the sleeper to Vienna. mmj, who had done the research, counselled the need for food, because there would be nothing on the sleeper, so we found a brasserie that was serving food at four in the afternoon and partook of their menu rapide, steak frites and salad, a glass of wine, rococco decor and a waiter of the old school, severe and superior.
Overstuffed with the too early dinner we boarded the sleeper, met the carriage attendant–a handsome young Austrian, found our somewhat claustrophobic compartment, and perched uncomfortably on the too hard seating.

ak

Postscript from Patmos

 Posted by at 11:29 am  Atelier  Comments Off
Nov 172006
 

Is THIS the "hallmark of change"?

Monday 30th October 2006:  a fellow traveller tells me that one of the monks in the monastery of the Orthodox Church of St John the Evangelist, the monastery built as great fortress to protect the holy treasures that belong there, has explained to her that the gesture of bringing together the thumb and first two fingers creates a symbol of the Trinity. The monk, who was also an American citizen and spoke perfect English, further explained that the great fissure in the roof of the cave of St John below the monastery occurred according to tradition at the moment (in AD 95)  when he received the Revelations that were written down by his scribe and became the last book of the Bible. The fissure, the monk pointed out, divides into a flattened Y at its outer end, making the shape of three fingers, and thereby signifying the Trinity. Autumn2006pics_077_1

The question already posed: ‘ What does it mean to say that a place underwent a change from being pagan to being Christian, or from being Christian to being Muslim?’

I confess that when I first saw the flattened Y at the end of the fissure emerging from the cave, my eyes saw the cleft in the rock as the thighs and pelvis, the sex of a mighty ancient Goddess. Then I also saw that the chapel in which I was standing, built alongside the cave of St John, was dedicated to Anne, the Mother of God.

Later in history, in the sixteenth century Patmos and the Monastery of St John fell under the control of the Ottomans, another change, but the Ottoman rulers did not disturb the dominion of the Orthodox Church over the island, and respected the great Christrian shrine. But then I also reflect that the coat of arms of the Ottomans, three crescent moons, is again reminiscent of the shape of thumb and first two fingers brought together.

mmj