Falling Away

Rather like Von Trier’s movie your quote from the Butler is at first sight rather indigestible, so I began to pull it apart:

 

‘ . . . a melancholia that attends living and loving

 

                        outside the livable

 

            and outside the field of love , , ,

 

 . . . overcome, in part, precisely

 

                        through the repeated scandal

 

by which the unspeakable nevertheless makes itself heard

 

through borrowing and exploiting the very terms

 

                        that are meant to enforce its silence.’

 

Perhaps the gaps could be even greater. Digestion should never be hurried.

Silence, perhaps, is an unknowingness until some

Thing emerges, something like an awareness of loss.

 

A sharp expelling of breath

Then more silence

Comforting silence – if only we could stay here –

 

But life intervenes, a clock strikes and it’s time to catch a bus.

Melancholy was always more accessible before we all had cars to hide away in.

The silent melancholy of the lone passenger wiping at the misted-up window

Where are we?

Yet in the loss does it matter as all journeys approach the timeless

 

For some reason I picture this bus heading away from Trafalgar Square down Whitehall halfway between Trafalgar Square and Parliament Square and it is probably less than half full. It’s about 8.30 on a rainy November evening. Working people heading home.

 

The driver is taking care of us through the wild country of government

 


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